J's Life Of Lies.

2009-01-20T16:15:00.002+08:00

Will Not Be Posting Anything Until Further Notice.

Starting Over With The Same Attitude.

2009-01-15T01:35:00.002+08:00

Ladies and Gentleman,

I present to you.. Me! A freshman to the KIGS family. Yes yes, as you all know, 14th January is the day of my initiation to become an IGS boy. Well, I came there quite early as I woke up very very early. Mom got a meeting and dad went to Temburong, so I was alone while looking at other kids with their parents. Not that I mind it that much, would be annoying if my parents were there as I know they'll nag me about doing well and etc2. Sat alone with the rest of the people, they were all doing PnD while I was the only one doing ND. There was one other girl who was doing ND like me, but she didn't show up.

Uncu helped me with the other stuffs. Registration and ECA-involvement. I joined the sports club but was sorely tempted to join the art & culture club which has a division of doing music and dance. But neh, I think I'll do better at sports than those two.

So after the welcoming speech by the teachers and done with the registration part, I bolted. Well my orientation wasn't finish until the afternoon, but hey Uncu told me that her friends were already planning to harass the freshies so yeah I bolted. See, it's good to have someone on the inside HAHA

Plus I have to pick up Jaji at 12.15 and Nabilah at 2.30 anyway, doesn't matter to me if I skipped that part of the orientation. If I'd stay and gotten harassed by the seniors, I think I'll bite back. With me having my depression attacks recently, I think they would've regret bullying me. But hey, I didn't wanna get on the bad side of the seniors on day 1 itself, so it's a good thing I escaped. Dad was pissed though, saying it's only the 1st day and you're already escaping. Ahh, maybe there wasn't any 'ragging' in your days old man, but there is a lot now.

I did get to meet some of my old friends though, was fun that they're there too. So that's practically my 1st day there. I'm looking forward to the 2nd day, some ECA-related thing. And lookie, I'm in the blue team so I gotta wear something bluey, is that even a word? Eh, who cares..

So cheerio people.

I miss you, but I'm not going to be around as always.

The Passing Year of A New One.

2009-01-01T02:45:00.004+08:00

Well well well, 2008 is done and dusted. We'll just leave it at that. A year of weakness for me, a year that really has it's share of ups and downs. Mostly down.

So 2009 has arrived. What will be in store for each of us? Will it bring joy? Happiness? Or will it bring depression? Sadness?

Will 2009 bring people closer or farther apart? Will it be a year of productive work or much procrastination?

Big Events in 2009 that I know:
(1) 14th January; My big day. I'll be an IGS student. Sigh~ Micronet would've been better because.. You figure it out! XD And I'm doing just ND! =(
(2) March; Mom and Dad going to China.. again. Oh well, I'll be expecting a new BAPE shoe to add to my growing collection (Y). And it doesn't hurt that I won't have any curfew now, not that curfew ever stops me anyway haha.

Okay that's the only thing I know, for now.. But hey I'll be optimistic of 2009. So should you people. Things might look up for once.

Alrighty,
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 my good people! May God bless ya! =D

Have You Noticed or Am I A Blur?

2008-12-29T04:07:00.002+08:00

This is just a rant I like to do, well hey, It's my blog no? If you don't like it, who's gonna stop you from leaving? I definitely won't. So here goes:

I can't deny it any longer, I do still love you like I did the day you told me you also feel the same way. I've been feeling the pain of waiting but I know it's near to impossible for us to be together while there are other, better suitors for you. Me? I'm just a nobody that got struck by your beauty. I can't say this straight to you because I don't want things to happen the way things did the day I left, And believe me it teared me to pieces having to leave you, but like I noticed, you got better suitors and I was best being the friend. You meant a whole lot to me as a friend, I was greedy, I wanted much more. And it left me hanging, pining away on what you didn't meant true. And now I realised that when you mean I was special to you was that I was a guy you need to have for support because of a bad break-up. I wasn't the guy who you'd really love and cherish as a man, no. I was a guy you would love just as a friend.

So maybe I was wrong, for telling you how I'd really feel when you were so vulnerable. Maybe I was wrong to be with you, to love being in your presence. And maybe I was wrong in leaving the way I did. I admit I was overcome with jealousy to see other guys that was also vying for you. But I did told you right how we are alike in the jealousy area? So that's why I left, so I need to get my own mind straight if I did love you or was I just a guy who loves to save a damsel in distress.

And now, I still can't get over you. Your beauty, your perfectly alluring smile, your infectious laughter, your personality. All of it attracts me more so. Hoping one day, I get a chance to show how much you meant to me, to shower you with the love you needed from a special guy. Have you noticed now that the way I am with you is just the same way I acted before I had problem with my pessimistic side?

I love you, I really do and I'll wait faithfully. That's all I'm gonna say to you =]

Who IS The Victim?

2008-12-26T00:13:00.004+08:00

This is turning into a huge tragedy. I don't know what's really happening and why I'm stuck in the middle. I'm a sucker for love. No matter how hard I tried, I just can't stop loving. And the hardest part is that I keep falling for a girl who isn't suitable for me. I'm always broken in the end. Emo emo emo! Yeh, what about it? This sucks, big time. No matter what, I ain't gonna be right for you, ever =)

the above is not meant for anyone

Hokay, just got back home from hanging out with the cuz. Today, I've been going out a lot! I mean, I just can't stay put at home man. Early morning, went out with my aunt to visit my newborn cousin and to help her out with some grocery shopping. Had lunch at Food Junction for the 2nd time in a row. I went there yesterday with a friend. But it's all good, nothing beats food! HAHA

Afternoon, went to Kiulap and Kiarong to search for Artly Designs and Aewon. Both are shops that can design shirts FYI. Because I wanna make some more TWLOHA shirts. Me likey the ones I got. Then straight to PAP, to meet the guys. Laughed a lot, jokes here and there with them. Can't stop laughing. We also played the kids game with our hands, you know, where we go from A-Z and find a name for the given theme from the last alphabet on the last finger? Yeh? XD

Night, function at Gramps house. Came, eat, left HAHA
Left to go to Gadong with the cuz. And we have a joker among us. Our very own comedian. Damn funny jokes. Oh man, that was embarrassing when you wiggled your ass in front of the girl HAHAHA

Okay so I get home safely, even through all that rain. I hate rain, it really clouds up my vision when I'm driving. Especially at night. You can call me semi-blind, nice to meet you. HAHA

Oh and the whole day, I paraded one of my TWLOHA shirt. It is just so awesome man~
See the shirt looks like this:

But the design was with this:

KAWAIIIIIIIIIIII MAN!!! HAHA That's all folks. Have a good boxing day!

Update:

This is what the shirt looks like;

Kawaii no? HAHA.

Stay, Leave.. I Don't Know. Confused!

2008-12-24T00:30:00.003+08:00

This is an overdue update, I've been neglecting my blog so and so because well, I always neglect it if I'm going overseas and then I change to a new skin. Yes dear people, I've just crash-landed back from Kuala Lumpur.

Well to be honest, I know you guys are going to be sick if I update everyday which will only consists of the usual routine of lounging, football and normal stuffs. So I didn't update it okay?

Imma make a different intro now:

See that title up there?
It's for you, I feel a bit distanced from you because people said I need to give you time and space to make your mind clear. People say I should leave you alone, so I won't get hurt if you do decide to choose another. Either way, in the end, I'm hurt. And without noticing it, I'm still waiting and hoping there's a tiny ray of light that differs from what my pessimist mind is saying. I guess.. I'm still waiting. Even though you told me not to wait just in case you'll hurt me. I'm already hurt. We've reverted back to the days when only when there's something important then we'll talk, no more random talk.

I've spill this out because I can't hold the pain. There was that thing that meant something for both of us, but what is it now to you? I think, it's 95% I'm not gonna write love on your arms. =)

But I'm still waiting, even I don't know why.

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Okay, back to my days.

Temburong: 13 and 14 of December, with the families sebelah Bengkurong. Fun fun! Loads of activities done. Did a lot of trekking up some hills! Pictures pictures will upload on Facebook soon.

KL: 19th - 23rd December, Enjoyed it a lot. what with my current headache and all, I got away for some me time. Did a lot of my hobby(shopping F.Y.I) and also got to eat eat and eat. I mean eat a whole damn lot. Whatever I want, I'll eat! HAHA

Some pictures are on facebook already!

So that's about it, I'm stuck in Brunei now for God knows how long again. I wanna get the hell outta here soon, and I should've stayed in KL until 3rd of January like my sister is doing. But no, I'm a bit glad I'm back home to comfort, to wireless, to my car YOSH!!!!

Alrighty I guess that's all for now, and tomorrow is Christmas! I've written my letter to Santa, how bout you guys? Cheers! HAHA

P.S: I'm thinking of the 2nd Chapter to 'View Of A Teen's Angst', anyone wanna contribute some ideas?

View Of A Teen's Angst, Part I.

2008-11-28T22:03:00.003+08:00

You've really brighten up my sad and cold life but when I thought my depression couldn't get any worse than it is, you're now missing. A click away, a text away, a call away yet there's problems that awaits in front. So I'm sinking into a much deeper depression that I'm having urges to hurt myself, badly. I just want you to be happy so I can wake up every morning to know there's a reason for me to smile. My hand is reaching for the razor slowly and I don't think I can stop myself, I don't think I want to either. I need to feel the pain outside of me rather than inside, it's more excruciating to feel it piercing through my heart. Something raced through my brain in a matter of a second, think of 'To write love on her arm', how do those people battle depression? Express your feelings to a friend? I don't have a lot of trusted ones, and the one's I trust is neither here nor there. They too have gone missing. Drown yourself in music? That's what I've been doing the past few hours and my music is making me more depressed by the second. Heart-break, leaving, dumped, alone, sad are just some of the contents. How can I help myself from not committing suicide? Is there anyone who is going to help me or are they the same as me? In need of help or busy helping themselves. Just how bad can these feelings go? Is there really a brighter day where the sun shines and the light radiating from you keeps me from being able to stop smiling? Please dear God, answer some of these questions that are lingering in my thoughts.

disclaimer: This confession/story isn't related to anyone dead or alive. It's just a story to raise awareness of depression. Please support 'To Write Love On Her Arm', a non-profit organization that battles depression and suicide feelings. =)

The Only Arm I'm Writing Love.

2008-11-27T21:53:00.005+08:00

Hee I'm happy for these two days :DDDDDD

I'm addicted to NTL nowadays, good group and good songs.

And I've got nothing to share! That's new.

Ending the post on a low note, there's some unfinished business and some things that are bugging me. I can't get over it.

Well, good day.

We Were An Imagination.

2008-11-23T23:36:00.003+08:00

A few seconds, come and go;
Those were the moments, I thought were real;
Believed in the love from you;
But shattering me;
Was another guy in the background;
Taking over that heart of yours.

He made you suffer;
Made you feel weak and useless;
But you still pine away for him;
When there was someone real.

We're a little lost;
A bit too heart-broken;
And just too down;
Looks happy on the outside;
Deep down we're screaming;
Let me go;
We were an imagination.

The sun shines brightly outside;
I'm holed in a cave;
Created by false hope from you;
I should've known better;
Trusted my instincts;
That we could never be real.

I'm deeply lifeless;
I've gone over the edge;
Truth be told, I'm losing a best friend;
But I will go on;

We're a little lost;
A bit too heart-broken;
And just too down;
Looks happy on the outside;
Deep down we're screaming;
Let me go;
We were an imagination.

All along he ignored you;
Leave you alone;
There's others who will rescue you;
Yet you hold on to him;
Hold on to his words;
Trusting he'll come back;
And sweep you away;
But life isn't like that.

Tears starts to roll down your cheek;
I can't bear to look;
You're losing everything;
Sadly I'm not there to comfort you.

We're a little lost;
A bit too heart-broken;
And just too down;
Looks happy on the outside;
Deep down we're screaming;
Let me go;
We were an imagination.

Just an imagination;
Can't be reality;
Imagination;
From the guy you used to know.

:)

I changed my song to NTL - Karma FYI.

My Quiet Whisper To Her.

2008-11-18T00:47:00.004+08:00

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart. If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own. When you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much. For fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

* What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

* What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

* What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

* What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you die tomorrow (God Forbid) You would be in my heart.

Would I be in yours?

We might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

I care about YOU!!

P.S. You've stolen something from me, half of my heart (:

Ku Juga Yang Terjerat.

2008-11-17T00:05:00.005+08:00

The title is sooooo gay of me -_-"

Anyway, I'm in a state of confusion. I can't but I do, I shouldn't but I hoped, and all that stuff. I've been thinking a lot on these lines the past few hours.

I need some time off from all these. I've been too close for my own good. So I guess Amit Bibeh's plan of flying to KK isn't such a bad idea after all. God knows I need some time off to clear my head and do some intense shopping. Hopefully it's a done deal, her plan is to fly by Malaysian Airlines to Kota Kinabalu this Wednesday until Friday. Good timing, good timing.

And if the trip to KK still doesn't do me any good, Sis Vil is offering to smack me on the head. HAHA thanks sis, I know you care about me and you don't want to see me get hurt. I know it was painful enough to go through what that person did to us. But we dodged a bullet with them, so it's all good.

Oh, have you guys heard of this Malaysian band called Hujan? Lovely music, indie though. I particularly like 'Aku scandal' and 'Pagi yang Gelap'. Try them out. And I've been listening to loads of Peterpan too these past few days. Aiyooo Haziq is turning into a Malay kid. HAHAHA

Have a good week people!

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*updates

YES! It is official. I'm off to KK on Wednesday, my flight is at 12.55pm and I'll be coming back to Brunei on Friday at 2.15pm. The tickets been booked already and I can't wait to start packing and leave. Shopping shopping shopping that's what I need now more than 'love' which I'm losing faith in.

WHEEEEEEEEEEE~ HAHA

Baby Just Breathe.

2008-11-15T11:07:00.006+08:00

Phew! Yesterday was damn tiring.

Me and the cuzzies went to the DST Open Day Carnival at their headquarters. It was fun! But the main event of the day was what got me excited to be there in the first place. The stars of football crazy, Andy Penders and Jamie Yeo were there as was also Paula Malai Ali. Andy's a cool guy, we got to hung-out with him and just talk about football. Jamie, a little bit of conversation only but she is sooooooooooooo hot! HAHA

We stayed at the carnival from 2p.m. to 9p.m I think, but it was all good. Then we went to have dinner at TK in Gadong. Arrived home near to 12a.m. Then after showering, opened the laptop, resumed downloading Supernatural episode 8. Checked my facebook, played some poker yada yada yada. But shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit, seriously? Anna has to die? Be an angel Castiel, c'mon! (Although you are an angel). Save her Dean and Sam! HAHA okay fandom aside.

Well the DST Carnival is a 3-day event, so I'll be going there again today. Yesterday was a sports themed, today MTV day! Wohoooo! But only VJ Utt is there boooooo hahaha. I'm not sure I'll be going there again tomorrow since tomorrow's theme is kid's day. Anyhoo I'll update you guys later on what will happen today.

Cheers.

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Okay, day 2 of the carnival was awesome as the first one itself. Yesterday we didn't partake in any activities but today, I forced my cousin, Wafi to join the shakedown dance competition. And he didn't even went through to the preliminaries booooo HAHA

He got beaten by a guy who danced like Beyonce or any other booty-shakers. I'm sure it's a guy, hold on.... *pukes

I'm still having nightmares of his slutty dance. Just imagine a stripper/hooker dancing for you, imagine the dancer is a dude. Yep, sickening no?

Alrighty, putting the horrors aside, on to the positive! I saw Adek Yatii, pretended not to know her and boy, was she pissed. HAHA Sorry dek, but your sister looks like she doesn't want you to talk to me ;p

Saw a lot of the old mates from way back.

Okay, Imma skip the boring part, I know! You guys just wanna see Utt. Well he's a cool dude, got to talk to him for awhile and was nice enough to give his autograph and let us take a picture with him. I nearly gave my cap to him because he said he liked it -_-

The Finale of the day ended with a !BANG!, yes sir, there were fireworks. It was beautiful, the images, the scenery, the moment. Only if a certain someone could've come then it would be more special. You know who you are. HAHA But don't worry, I got you a souvenir ;D I'll give it to you soon eh?

[It says, "To Elle, take care w/ love - Utt"]

*I'll post the video of the fireworks soon after youtube verifies it*

Until next time then.

..Birthday? What Birthday Party?

2008-11-12T02:44:00.005+08:00

I know I know, it's overdue, people wanted to know how my party went. What can I say? We didn't have a birthday cake, as expected I didn't receive any present, it was total chaos here and there and most of all NO FREAKIN' PHOTO OF ME! YES! That's why it took me long enough to write this post because I was looking for the people with the cameras on their freakin' hand, but they didn't even take any photo of the birthday boy. I even contemplate on making a video blog just so it'll be exciting and since this is my 50th post. But making a video blog takes too much time that I could put to good use somewhere else.

BUT!

It's all good. It was enjoyable and fun. We had a pre-karaoke practice the night before and when the clock strikes at 12, the families sang the birthday song and it got annoying when it went on and on by each person haha I'm kidding family. We went to Mamih to buy some late night snacks and we karaoke'd the night away until 2 in the morning. Woke up early in the morning to help set up the balloons/other stuffs and I still haven't showered or changed clothes. Even after some people came, I was still in my overly large camo shirt and boxers HAHA. It was hilarious to see their reaction that birthday boy was still in his boxers, should've gone buck naked HAHAHA

So I got dressed over the insistence of my parents which was not saying much. Just threw on my United shirt and my favourite quarter Burberry pants. The food that was served for the day were kebab, sizzling claypot mee, some traditional food I couldn't remember and to top it all off, dessert from Mr. Softy the ice cream man.

We ate, karaoke'd, Rock Band'd (fucking love this game, me DRUMMMMMERRR!), bouncer'd (I got thrown into the pool by my uncles, dammit! HAHA) and caught up with families and friends.

I'd like to thank the families who made it possible for this event to be special.
To the friends(Adib, Mash a.k.a Comel and the Benk Boys), thanks for coming, hope you guys had fun.
A special thanks to Iring for lending the PS3, Buday for lending the Wii and to Nini Asai for the karaoke stuffs.

Cheers guys.

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10th November:

Hangover from the party all day. We (us Benk Boys) had a futsal game with the Kemuda Institute and my friend's team. From 7-9 pm. It was soooo much fun that we'll be holding another one soon hopefully. We're already planning on it. Met my old tuition mate Rusydi there, I totally forgot he's in Kemuda now. Sorry bro HAHA. We ate at pasar malam hahaha.

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11th November:

...Squat...

...Nothing...

But I want to wish Si Maun a happy 23rd Birthday. Have a blast! He's our John Terry and one of our great defenders in the team. He's also one of the catalyst to the team and part-time leader during a match. Although always the butt of jokes by his cousins and us friends hahaha. Oh did I mention he was the one who made it possible for us to go up against Kemuda and he was like their leader there. Alrighty have a blast Maun.

Gotta remember 14th jua, Remy's birthday. Us Benk boys ramai birthday this November haha.

Adios!

P.S: Oh for pictures of the party on the 9th, go to my family blog site which is Omar-Aminah's family blog. Find it there under 'the people' heading --------->

To be honest it has to be one of the most biased photography I've seen. Look if you don't like us, don't come to my place. Yes, I'm pissed that I didn't even get one shot but not even a photo evidence of recognition for my family?

Also go to my sister's blog which is Biella for some videos of that day which consists of only those old people letting out their inner beast and making a fool of themselves by shaking their money-makers HAHAHAHAHAHA

U.S. Presidential Election.

2008-11-05T07:45:00.005+08:00

I've been following U.S. politics since 2004 when it was Bush vs. Kerry, now the day has arrived when we will see the last of George W. Bush's reign over that political arena. And here to step up to the plate are two candidates in the form of Barack Obama and John McCain.

Well to be honest, I'm rooting for Barack Obama. He's more down to earth and he shares a lot of the people's views.

So let's wait for the good news people, will update when the news is out on whether the Obama-Biden camp wins or the McCain-Palin camp wins. In the mean time, I'll leave you with a video made by John M. Chu (director of step up 2) about the presidential elections. It's the election dance off! Presenting the Obamanators vs. the McCainiacs:

*update:

Well fancy that, I'm not surprised!

Barack Obama is the President of America! History in the making, we have the first African-American president. He won 338 seats to McCain's 160. Now America is in safe hands, he is what the world neigh what America needs badly. He will shake up the world's economy to a better value, will end the wars and etc. I RESPECT YOU BARACK OBAMA!

Born To Be Alone.

2008-11-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

See, I was reflecting on a post about two persons who are close to each other, be they boy-boy, boy-girl or girl-girl. And I reflected on myself, okay I have loads of friends but none who are close enough to share the highs and lows. Even my partner-in-crime Akee I won't consider close at all. Sure we go out a lot, talk out some stuffs and all that, but deep down we both know there are times when we couldn't count on each other. And I see my family from both sides and see cousins pairing up while I'm left all alone sometimes. I guess this is why I'm less talkative or abrasive or spontaneous than most people. Sometimes I just felt that they left me all alone because they don't care about the complex guy I am or in other words they hate me. I never could think of anything that is remotely interesting when it was needed.

And then I thought back to the times when I had a girlfriend. Most of them wanted me to talk... a lot. It's just not me, so the relationship turned sour. I thought hey it wasn't meant to be and moved on. Got me thinking if every girl in this country likes their boyfriend to never stop talking. I'm not a girl friend to gossip or to discuss the hottest guy there is. I'm just here to listen to your day no matter how awesome or shitty it was. I'm a guy where you can always count on to be a shoulder to cry on not a guy you assume to giggle and squeal with delight if a hot guy passes by. Capiche?

Anyway enough of me, I'm just a hopeless romantic guy wanting the world to be like in the movies. So I'll leave you guys off on a high note.

You guys know Adam Sevani right? Moose rings a bell? Step Up 2? Yes, that kid. Well he made an awesome tribute to Michael Jackson's thriller video and re-made it his way. It's awesome and the dancing in this one is awesome. Well, here you go:

A Tribute To The Team.

2008-10-31T13:52:00.003+08:00

Hey-oh!

Am still considering if making those two blogs is worth it because so far I've only got three votes and am still in the blues on who vote. I mean if I knew who voted we can discuss on where we want the blog to go, it's aim and stuffs.

So yesterday was the most fun I had in days during football training. The sun was shining, the field was ready for some good running action, and the boys was ready to do some damage to the goal post. HAHA! It was enjoyable because the passes, the skills, the play was sublime and finesse. I mean even if the team I'm in lost 3-0, we really played some good football. I love this team! It's the only team I've stuck to for more than a year. Usually I find something on the other team that doesn't suits my style of playing but the Benk boys tolerate me and taught me along the way on how to improve.

The picture is missing some few people such as Sabri, Pam, Syukri and some few new people such as Kambar and Iqbal. The team is also missing the presence of the people such as Ariff(UK), Afif(Australia) and Anuar(Wales).

Alrighty then, on to today. Hopefully we'll have more hard training to do before we take on matches with other team. And from what I've heard this team haven't lost since the beginning of the team's formation. So I must train harder so I won't ever see this team lose.

OH HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE, IT'S THE 31st!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEE HAHAHAHA!!!!!

Pretend That You're Needed.

2008-10-26T23:52:00.005+08:00

Hey, 'sup people?

I left the blog unattended these few days because I want the poll to be the first thing you people will see when you came here, so far only two votes. Seems I was right that my blog is crappy and I only wrote crappy stuffs. Oh well, to those who voted please be a dear and leave your name on the tagboard so I'll know. Much appreciated.

It's October guys!!! I'm psych because Halloween is at the end of the month and it's my favourite holiday of all. I wish someone would held a party in honour of this day, now I'm wishing I was in America or England. People getting dressed up, the candies, the monster party, pumpkins, tombstones, bats and all those shits. See, it's better than Christmas or Raya or Thanksgiving or Adha'. We live in fear and this one day that the fear consume us and we took on the costume of those fear.

Then there's November coming soon. A futsal game with the Benk Boys on the fourth is something I'm looking forward to because this is the chance us boys hopefully will all be there excluding Ariff and Afif that is. This is because our everyday training is hampered by the constant rain and the lack of some people showing up (which I'm also included sometimes).

9th November is also not very far anymore. Mom told me she was going to hold a food fiesta here and prolly gonna get a bouncer too as a party for my birthday and my sister's 'Islamic calendar' bithday. I told her I've never celebrated my birthday so why should it start now? And it's up to her what she wants to do with that date as it'll be just like any other day to me except that my age is adding plus one. Maybe I'll just hang out with some friends. But just in case any of my family is reading this, here's my current wishlist:

1) PS3.
2) The rock band set.
3) A good TV for my room.
4) Lots and lots of cash.
5) A Nikon/Canon/Sony DSLR camera.

HAHAHA I'm just joshing, I'm not even gonna expect one single measly present this year. Last year was funny though that my brother surprised me with a blue teddy and that teddy bear is now my companion when I go to sleep.

I guess that's it for today, sayonara people and keep on voting. Those groups need your support.

^{I can only muster a half-hearted smile for you.}

It Started As A Whisper.

2008-10-23T01:18:00.005+08:00

I can see the blog is static. The tagboard is static. The readers and writer is static. It's moving at the speed of a snail. But oh well, it's the exam days but I'm still gonna go strong posting utterly crappy post that is a waste of time reading. I didn't start this blog to stop in the middle, so I go on while everyone is somewhere else.

Alrighty my non-existent readers, I need your opinion. I am about to create two new blogs that is all about groups and I need your help to see if it will take off smoothly. Meaning the decision is in your hand. Jeez that is so a cliche.

Okay lemme explain these groups:

1) Parkour/Free Running Community is a group planned and lead by A'a. It is all to do with parkour and with a lot of interest from you guys, I will prolly propose to the Ministry of Youth and Sports to make it a legitimate sport. Meaning I want gyms to be created with all the equipment to practice. And also either A'a or me will propose to the Parkour Community in England with the help of her friends in Malaysia who already has approval of the community in England and the Minister of Sports in Malaysia, so that the Ministry here will not look it down as another trendy fad thingy. If you don't know anything about parkour or free running, type it up on youtube and see the wonders of the sport. So join up if you're interested.

2) Candid Crew You or CCYou is a dance group I've had in mind for the past few months that is all to do with dancing. The difference with this group with other groups, is that I want it to be spontaneous and a 'spur of the moment' dance. Meaning no choreography and at anytime, any place, anywhere (Jangan ja di kubur eh -_-"). I wanna make it small first with a few interested people then if it's huge in Brunei, I'll have my contacts in other countries to recruit more people until it will be a huge community around the world that is unite by the passion to dance. The dance will be taped and be posted on the blog for others to learn and to show your skills. Alright you know what to do, Be spontaneous and dance for the passion.

So what do you guys think? Lame? HAHA Piss off, I'm serious about this two and I wanna make it global because I want the name of Brunei to be very well known by them other countries. And if you think some shitty talk will bring me down, you're wrong. The more reason I will prove to people it can be done.

Alright people, Imma leave you with a video from the ever scantily-clad hottie that goes by the name of Lady GaGa. Well she got me going Gaga over her. Ohkay lame pun.

Lady GaGa feat. Colby O'Donnis - Just Dance

Work It, Let's Hustle.

2008-10-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

Back to my daily ramblings now.

Okay five days in Beribi was okay, food was being consumed non-stop and me likey having less work to do after eating, just chill and have a smoke. So coming back home to no maid was a drag for me and it's tiring the hell out of me. Every single thing that was remotely needed done was handed over to me. From cleaning dishes to cleaning the toilet bowl after my brother took a dump. WTF?! I ain't touching that niggs. Okay I'm over exaggerating but hey I'm a guy who is raised with a maid so my lazy attitude is one I can't change overnight and prolly I wouldn't want to. I'm just wondering if this stays on forever, how the hell am I supposed to go to college next year with shit loads of things to do when I get home. It was bad enough being the driver for the kids now I've got this kind of responsibilities too? Dayyyyym. Pray to God by next week, the old man will find a new maid. And I salute to you guys who are used to doing dishes and cooking and washing and all those chores set up by yous people parents, I'm sorry I can't help being spoiled.

Mom says it builds up character, I call it bollocks. These chores are setting a toll on me and today I had to use my car to go play football at PAP knowing my car is wack at the moment. To those who doesn't know, my car's gearbox is damaged, it wouldn't move at 'D'. But I had to use it, if I was to walk to PAP, would've took me 10 mins and I was already damn late. Hoping I didn't damage the car more than it is now.

I think Rooney has an effect on me. He is playing well for England and Manchester United nowadays and my performance is improving too. I'm not the same player I was a month ago, I was too predictable and slow. I'll call it the 'Rooney Revolution' =D. I'm still not fit though, I can only go on running for an hour. -_-"

Anyway ciao people, good day.
And as Lady GaGa say, "Just dance!"

The Night Becomes The Enemy.

2008-10-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

Hey guys and girls, I know it's been awhile since I've posted something new here.
I don't feel like posting anything since the Raya days because....

...*checks photography folder*....

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No photos of me.. crap! HAHA!

And also the past 5 days, I've been at Dai's to baby-sit the boys while Uncle Zack is in Hawaii. So having to withstand the no wireless area in Beribi, I am completely away from the blog section of life. Although I could've blog because I got my laptop with me and basically going to Gadong everyday with the cuzzies.

So anyway onto life itself, how are you people? life treating you good?

While I was at Beribi, every night I've been thinking about this girl I've had a crush on for a few months already and unconsciously I've been writing down some lyrics/songs in my head and in my book. I was gonna post some songs here when I got home but I'm going to have to scrap that idea because in the afternoon I checked her blog and looks like I'm too late, I'm still not sure though if she has a boyfriend. So now I'm not gonna post those songs I've constructed but maybe someday I will when I decide I'm ready to fall in love again. Ah well loads of chickas out there still and Imma have to start from scratch.

So here's to life people, loads of ups, loads of downs.
Just gotta be strong and take the next step, Don't be afraid to let things slip just because you hold it so dearly once upon a time.

P.S: I've been meeting interesting people during my five days at Beribi whether all alone or with my cuzzies ^_^

The Official Announcement.

2008-10-01T04:51:00.004+08:00

Raya falls on the 2nd of October 2008 here in Brunei so Selamat Hari Raya people! Maaf, Zahir dan Batin.

On to today:
Sungkai-ed at Food Zone, Gadong Properties. Hung-out with the cuzzies at Gadong at night then hung-out with the Benk Boys at PAP and BattleZone (Yes, CS).

Hours at night of unproductive work(hanging out): 6 1/2 hours.

Conclusion: I'm jobless and bored.

On the upside Heroes episode 3 and How I Met Your Mother episode 2 already downloaded. Why haven't I watched them yet? Because when I got home, it was nearly the United match. And I'm ecstatic to say we won the match with a goal from Rooney (2nd in two games) and two goals from Berbatov (both volleys), 3-0.

So it's the last day of puasa, whatcha gonna do people? I know the 'bedils' are going out soon, funnily enough I'm hearing it now at...*looks at the clock*...5am.

I'm off now, gonna watch Heroes and HIMYM. Once again, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin dear readers!!!!! Contact me or leave a message on the tagboard if you want me to come to your open house =D

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Update:

It's 10am and I still haven't slept. I sent my car this morning (and I mean early morning) to a car wash in Kilanas. Can you believe there's already a few cars there to be wash? And that was like about 8-ish, so dad sent me home and now I'm gonna wait until 12.30pm to pick it up in which I don't know who will drive me there in the first place.

And soooo waiting for it, I got bored and messed with my old photoshop tutorial and of course the photoshop. My theme was love, and out of boredom I choose the people I knew who missed each other badly. So here goes, surprise cuzzy and the girlfriend!!!!

And oh, I put his blog rather than mine is because I want him to use it. I have no use for it, just that I want to see smiles on the faces of those two so that they'll hold on to what's real. ;D

Let's Catch These Idiots!

2008-09-30T03:32:00.004+08:00

I want to grab people's attention first, here's the scoop, Adek Yatii gave me a link to a website and it's like Wiki but this one however talks mostly about crap. And not just any crap, it's taking the crap on my/our beloved country, Brunei. I know I'm not that patriotic of Brunei but even I won't take a piss like this. This is the place where you grew up mofo and you should respect it as it is. So I want people's help who has any connections to any government officials (preferably KDN) so that they can take action and apprehend these idiots who think it's cool to write stuffs about Brunei that is totally degrading.

The Webbie: UnCoolPedia

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Life's been the same old same old. So no need for sordid details okay?

Tomorrow Insyaa raya, soooo ready everyone? *actually not in the mood for it but battle face on*

And so in advance Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin to the faithful readers of this blog. Cheers!!!

P.S. Still can't stop laughing that Yean got one over Elle HAHAHAHA

but *straight face* lurus cakap Yean, your body will *tahan ketawa* hide your big butt *holding onto life not to laugh*, meanie!!! xp

Better Late Than Never.

2008-09-27T01:59:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Ziggy!!! How old are you again? HAHA sorry.

Well you've been a great friend to me since we were kiddies and I cherish all those memories of us being great friends (I still got that polaroid of you and Zani :D ). The rock-bottom you gave me in Ugama~ Ring a bell? HAHAHA

Even though we've lost contact over the past two-three years but hey, whenever I see my youngest brother, I remembered you because that's hell the reason I ask my parents to name him after you LOL. Anyway thanks to coincidence/fate(?), we can now resume the loooooooooooooooong lost friendship. Oh btw Zi, my mom wishes you well.

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To-day was quite okay by my standards. Woke up early to help out the cleaning of the house since raya is around the corner. OMFG!!!! RAYA IS NEAR!!!! Anyway back to the topic, cleaning and changing of the ... (I forgot whats 'tabir' in English). Then Friday prayer, then again with the cleaning until 3-ish before I fell asleep. Woken up abruptly by the banging on my door because we had to go to Kubur Kilanas.

After that, I went to the airport to say my goodbyes to Anis (Akee's GF). I wish you luck babe!

Then I went to Beribi, Dai's house for a feast (I sungkai-ed at the airport with just a drink and a smoke), Terawih there and went to Gadong with the usual suspects. Akee decided to watch a movie (Disaster Movie 5.5/10) so he won't moped around because his girlfriend just left. Surprise Surprise, Luke went with us also so it was entertaining to say the least. After the movie, just went to Luke's house to chill. Got home and typing this post around 1-ish heheh :D

In between the end of the movie and the chilling at Luke's house, I chatted with Elle because I sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo missed chatting with her hehe *winks
Open house on the 5th ah? Insyaa ;D

So anyway now I'm lacking of sleep and still waiting for episode two of the Supernatural series to finish downloading, I say later people!

Another 19th Of The Day.

2008-09-25T02:50:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to my boy, si Z-Zach-Zak-Zakwan-Zyakwan(?). Anyway happy 19th Birthday bro ___________(Put any birthday/life cliche's here).

[Curi ni gambar dari blog dia]

One of my oldest friend since ugama days. Cheers!

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The day went by just like any other day. Sungkai at a cousin's house and that's it. Not a happening day to say the least.

23rd and 24th Septmber 2008

2008-09-25T02:20:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, 23rd September:

Usual stuffs in the morning to afternoon, but awal jalan at 4.50pm to fetch them Benk Boys because we planned our sungkai luar on this day. The venue was La Mee, Gadong. Food was good except tempatnya sempiiiiiiiiit. HAHAHA

Then kami round2 Brunei. From Gadong to Kiulap and Yayasan. After what would be an exhausting evening plus me driving with a headache, we went to chill at Taurean Cafe at the Arch. Ada A.S.¹ bahhh but that night she didn't look that hot. Prolly the hair. HAHAHA

The Benk Boys who were there;
Me, Eddy, Adin, Ai, Maun, Jam, Remy, Labi and Muiz².

Sadly.. No pictures.

Wednesday, 24th September 2008:

Also the same routine, but I took most of the day to watch 'How I Met Your Mother' and 'Heroes'. New season and new surprises, so to anyone who haven't watch these shows yet, siuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuk!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tengok ah!!!!!!

Night went to play futsal/street with them Benk Boys sebab ada bola baruuuuuu HAHAHA yeps when we went to Kiulap they decided to buy a new futsal ball because the last ball was si Ariff punya and since he's not here, how to borrow meh?!

Anyway tired tired but still had loads of fun with them =D

¹The girl we fought over (literally) during our football times.
²I don't know if he is counted as one of the Benk Boys though.

20th - 22nd September 2008

2008-09-22T04:42:00.004+08:00

20th September:

Not much that I can remember, practically stayed at home the whole day. At night went to see the new baby of my cousins. Baby Po HAHAHA then terus sahur with the kilanas family at Gadong properties.

21st September:

Also nothing during the day, night went out to Mamih, hung-out with my old friends while watching the United vs. Chelsea match. Annoyed with the 1-1 results. Stayed with them until 2am.

22nd September:

Heroes and How I Met Your Mother out later, Supernatural is already out. All I can say is it's awesome!!! I don't remember what happened this day. -_-"

19th September 2008

2008-09-22T02:51:00.009+08:00

First things first: A BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PARTNER-IN-CRIME, COUSIN AND ETC.

[That boy over there, I'll follow soon eh jadi 19?! HAHA]

We went to Empire in the early morning for a photo-shoot. Again just see the pictures:

The place itself;

Us;

Well, Jgn tah byk2, we went to pantai Berakas next.
*Ada sexy photo oooo~ HAHAHA*

That night, I played futsal/Street with the Benk boys. Was with them up until 1am discussing sungkai plan and other stuffs.

On To The Next Then.

P.S. Nanti tah lagi ada photo-shoot at Empire since Yatii mau jadi model HAHA.

18th September 2008

2008-09-22T02:19:00.007+08:00

Sungkai at Gramps kat sebelah rumah ne hah. Pastu pulak terawih kat rumah saye. Tengok je gambarnye aytes.

[Lame OI Jieyah -______-"]

[Lameness strikes again~ -_-"]

[bilik saye, messy no?]

[I don't think that's a girl wearing a red shirt HAHA]

That night, I went to sleep at Tutong but before that ON TO GADOOOOOONG!!!

On To The next post for the next day.

Night Out In Brunei.

2008-09-17T23:35:00.005+08:00

I'm not that into photography nor will I ever be that serious in it. I'm more of a computer geek, meaning photoshop is where my heart resides in. But I think I did an okay job in getting some pictures of our night out around Brunei. 'Our' meaning Me, Akee, Anis (Akee's girlfriend) and Wafi (Akee's brother). The pictures was necessary for an assignment of Akee in web-designing with the theme of holiday in Brunei. Akee ask my help because I know loads more in computer language than he does, and me being jobless and school-less decide to take up the challenge. And oh this happened last night, So here are some of the pictures:

My work;

Wafi's work;

Akee's work;

Anis's work (and my favourite one);

We went from meeting up at Gadong to Jame' to Yayasan to Kiulap to lastly Jerudong Park. From 8.30pm - 2am. This is how knackered I was:

But I had loads of fun though and I hoped will be able to do this soon again as we are planning to get more pictures at Empire and some other places.

A big up to Khaliq for letting us borrow his camera, thanks mate. And get well soon from your operation yeah?

P.S. Ada yang mau jadi model for the next photo shoot? HAHA

In Repentance.

2008-09-13T15:32:00.003+08:00

_{note to self: One day, you'll look back at this and think hard how you either will become the good person you are or succumb to the devilish pits of evil fire thats burning your core.}

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry to the people I have let down so much. Be it family or friends.

I'm recently sorry to Hazazi and Nabilah, two of my siblings whom I forgot to pick up from their respective school today because I was sleeping my ass off. To Hazazi, I know you're still a kid but that shouldn't stop you from blaming your big bro here for being an idiot and the fact that you don't blame me just makes it worst. You gave me your smile instead when you could've and should've given me an icy glare and the cold shoulder. I know it's my fault that I was too dependent on someone waking me up that I have left you waiting at your school for 2 hours. You a primary school student shouldn't have to go through that and I'm sorry.

And to my sis, nothing can be said that I haven't said. I know you won't forgive me that easily as you have seen and grown side-by-side with me to see how corrupted I have become in the face of the family. I promised I could fetch you after Jaji, but in the end it was dad who came to the rescue instead. I'll try my best to make it up to you, both. I'm really sorry.

I didn't want to be born as the heir to the family throne nor do I want to born with that responsibility. But God gave me that responsibility and I intend to do justice to the faith that is shown to me. Some kids have all the luck of being the youngest kid in the family as they are well pampered while the elders are thrust upon the burden of carrying the family name. In my case, a lot of the burden are entrusted to me rather than it being equally shared upon my other siblings and I, being a major screw-up, haven't done an ounce of justice it. For now all I can do is repent and show the family that God made me the first child, the first grandchild of the Noor family won't be turned to waste.

Promises are never meant to be broken, and lateness is something I can't tolerate. But these two are broken with my own bare hands. What does that make me? A hypocrite? I never intend for it to done, the world still spins, so I will go on with life before it crumbles to pieces. I hope for a better day, that I will never ever make the same mistake twice and for one day to be a better man than that I am of today.

I am truly sorry people.

_{For one to live,
Is to see the smiling faces in the loved ones.}

Jesus, Mary and Joseph.

2008-09-12T00:24:00.005+08:00

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?

Q: I know that's what you all are thinking. How is it a Muslim guy is saying those at the title?
A: Do Not Get Me Wrong, I'm by no means converting to Christianity or any other religion for that matter. It's only when I'm damn pissed and annoyed that I swear in that way.

Q: How is it swearing?
A: Well to most of us Muslims, we do not support nor hail the so called gods of the Christian's faith, so the word itself is like a taboo to us. (And believe me, when I was a kid, I couldn't even look at a cross without someone covering my eyes)

Q: Why can't I swear like normal people?
A: Please, the word fuck and shit or any variations are too common nowadays and becomes more or less like the vocabulary of our life.

Q: So what have gotten me all pissed off to an extent that I am swearing in the Christian's god's name?
A: Okay, here's a recap of today's events. I was looking forward to this day because it was my day out to go sungkai with the other friends I have although I had a hunch of impending disaster(for dramatic effects only), so yeah I went early but hung out at Beribi first. When it was nearly time for sungkai, I went to the place them people had booked expecting to see most of the faces I knew from a little while back. But neyh, only some were there so I chilled, hoping others would come soon. No buffet, strike one. The least I would expect to come (however late) was my ex and her boyfriend-turned-ex-turned-boyfriend (and yes, he became an ex because of me, not my fault though). So I was left wondering why the fuck would that guy would bring a chinese girl for sungkai, strike two. And there I was sitting, eating, joking with the other people while trying my best to ignore the two person I hated right now for the most until we all went our separate ways when I could've escaped with an idea that occurred to me in the next few hours (read: now), strike three and I'm fucked. So I got pissed at the others when they didn't told me that he would be coming too (and hence my hunch of impending disaster was justified) because if I'd knew he'd come I would've suspected(only suspicions not justifications) he will in one way or another bring that chinese bitch along, So I won't come. I'd rather eat alone then to be in the vicinity of these two crappers.
*Si FancyQueen pun nda tia jua faham2 why I wanna leave so early. -_-"

Q: Why do I hate them so?
A: Well the reason I hated that prick is because he hated me for being honest to him about my feelings of the girl before then after they broke up. So he suspected me of breaking them two apart. The bitch however made me hate her for the durations of our time-out and onwards due to the fact before that she had been saying that "oh a guy dropped by my house and he looks so hot", hence immaturity to the mind being suggested. And she called me jealous because of that? WHO IN THEIR FUCKING RIGHT MIND WOULD STATE SUCH ABSOLUTE BOLLOCKS TO THE BOYFRIEND LIKE THAT????? I don't give a fuck if you're in love with a superstar which in one out of millions is the ratio of possibility, but if it's another layman like you and me, ....., fucking dumbass.

There will be a time when all of this will be forgotten, but forgiven? No thank you, I'd rather not. So to those who think I will be friends with these kind of people again I say I'd rather not. This and some other dark oppressed memories stemmed some parts of my brain to be so psychotic that you would not have thought it was possible of me.

P.S. And if you're reading this, All I want to say is that you can go rot and whore around in the U.K. if, heaven forbids, your parents' cash runs out, so cheers to that.
P.S.S To any offended races I've mentioned in my article above. It is not my way to be a racist, I do have non-muslim friends, but this article is directed to that thing only and I'm refraining from saying names.

_{There will be time for laughter,
And time for sadness,
You chose the wrong time.}

It's A Hangover.

2008-09-04T13:40:00.006+08:00

No, I have not been drinking nor would I be drinking soon enough. But to explain my title, it's because these two days prolly three days including today, I've had a huge headache after sungkai. I've eaten less too. So yeah that's why I'm saying it's like a hangover. Still didn't stop me from going to the mosque though hee. I think I need some fresh air, meaning hopefully I'll go out for sungkai soon enough. I really don't care with whom, just as long as I go out.

Oh, and I wanna share you this song by Automatic Loveletter, it's called hush. Really love the song and the lead singer is damn hot haha. I support you Juliet Simms and Automatic Loveletter. \m/ and not forgetting All Time Low too, this is the band where I found Juliet from when she contributed her rawr-ing voice to 'Remembering Sunday'. If you wanna listen to 'Remembering Sunday', it's on the right-side of the page under 'Listen And Relax', It'll automatically play itself.

So here's Hush - Automatic Loveletter:

_{'When I was forced to make a difficult decision,
You made me choose the wrong one.'}

Happy Fasting To Readers.

2008-09-02T01:02:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow at 4.45am it is officially the start of the Ramadhan season where all of us Muslims will be fasting. So yeah, Happy Fasting Y'all. Jangan ponteng tau, haha I know I won't this year. XP

So anyone who wants to go out sungkai, you know where I'm at, just give a shout-out. =D

And to the Benk Boys: Sembahyang Terawih di Masjid yoooo, 8 rakaat HAHA!! Pastu keluar besigup, hek eleeeeh HAHA!!!

Oh and tadi we played our last football game of the month (aher pulang nah sampai ke masjid haha), woots sebulan lagi ni before we can play footie. Unless ada yang mau main malam?! HAHA..

Cheerio.

Competing For Girls.

2008-08-31T00:56:00.004+08:00

A good convo from the guys and I enjoyed a good laugh about this, the topic is as suggested in the title about girls. Specific girls to be exact which they had eyes on, and actually one is a friend of mine. So yeah, they pestered me about it but hey it was all in good humour. So enjoy.

*This convo is in the form of e-mails so I'll just change it to something easier to read and the name of the girls will be hidden due to privacy*

Ai:
Alo semua...krg malam jalan? last malam minggu before puasa.....round2 sugar and spice manatahu kejumpaan A.S. or N.K. aka baju putih "ai" yang punya.. to arip puasa nda batah, jgn jadikan "alasan" di uk atu supaya nda berpuasa....sama jua to apiiiip

Eddy:
hahaha ok 2 insyaallah..awu ahh mana tau ada ia..maun, A.S. aku punya 2 ahh..krg malam tani smua pkai baju putih :P

Maun:
hahah bh2 mun kjumphan ku aga tarus tu haha bju putih i punya, kita jumpa pat biasa krg

Ai:
krg malam aku rasa kejumpaan ni A.S. last saturday night sebelum berpuasa....start puasa kita sembahyang tarawih 8 rakaat...

Maun:
haha rasa2 ganya, kang mlm mun hujan cancel!

Ai:
hek eleh (Eze style)...hujan kah nda hujan. semua org jua jalan tu. hujan dirumah nda jua mau astro....bah bila lagi london kebab-ing? nanti puasa sibuk tu hehe

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

That was today's e-mails, This was on the 28th:

Ai:
To,
Adin
Eddie
Maun
Labi
Apip
Haziq

Dimalam ada c arip sms yg berbunyi "Ai! brunei hall boring haha anyway kirim salam durang semua. lapar ku eh". So basically ia kirim salam to semua ok.

pemenang bagi main bola bagi merebut bini2 (mainannya siapa goal dpt bini2) adalah:

1st Goal; N.K. aka Baju Putih - Ai
2nd Goal; A.S. - Maun
3rd Goal; Sex Machine-Haziq
4th Goal; A.S. 2 - Eddie
5th Goal; F. KEMUDA-Muiz
6th Goal; Sex Machine 2 - Haziq
7th Goal; 3 in 1 (A.S.+N.K.+F.) - IQBAL

Sekian disampaikan.

Maun:
hahaha bju putih i punya jga2 kmu c ai mgacang dah 2 haha to haziq tahniah dpt sex mechine haha to adin happy blated birthday

Ai:
esok main bola aku mau revenge balik A.S. wahahaha all time favourite kali ah....

Afif:
Hahaha pacahhh.

ROFL!!! We had a good laugh playing football on that day because of this, enjoying the moment of madness from one another. Even those that doesn't have a clue what we were talking about had a good laugh with us. And am happy to see Afif and Ariff still are contributing somewhat to the conversation even if they're not in Brunei with us. And eventhough it still is raining tonight, we did went out and hung-out though not at the afore-mentioned places that was in the convo.

Keep this moment of madness coming, a good laugh is what makes us a great team XD

A Goodbye and A New Start.

2008-08-28T04:08:00.005+08:00

Well, 26th August was the flight to UK for the lucky people who got scholarships from the government and a lot of people was at the airport. Families and friends were there, to say their goodbyes to a member of the community who will make them proud. And I was there to see off Ariff, the guitar-loving dude who has been a constant thorn in my ass in football but also the guy who introduced me to a lot of tv series and lepak buddy at times. So cheers rep.

[Ariff performing at MD prom night Jan'08]

And Rep, if you're reading this.. Ingat last words ku, ingat2 these people here in Brunei especially tuuuu girlfriend mu ah.

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In other topic, I gathered up the courage to tell my mom and dad about me not being fit anymore to go on studying the subjects that I'm taking for the past two years. I still want to continue studying don't get me wrong, just not with the subjects that consists of History, Accounting and Geography. It just doesn't peak my interest anymore, but yet they are forcing me to take the November exam again in hope that I can get a better result thus leading to a next year scholarship. Just doesn't seems right in my eyes to force it, I mean I flunked the AS/A2 exams thrice already. Once being the June exam in my senior year for AS and twice for November and June('08) about both AS and A2.

And in my mind I'm set for a studying course in Micronet (-_-" idea siapa ni nah?! XD)because of the fact that I'm quite good in computer so perhaps I can excel there and maybe after I finished the course there then prolly I'll try to get a scholarship of some sort to further that studies overseas. But right now I'm content on being in Brunei. Hopefully this resolves soon and hopefully by then I'll be a Micronet kid.

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A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADIN. Well his birthday was yesterday actually but still Happy Birthday. Nda ku mau bgitau si baju putih that her smile is killing you HAHA. Bgitau sendiri, kamu betiga berabut tah. Aku nda mau ikut campur XD

[Me, Jam, Maun and Adin(The birthday boy/man?!)]

When You Wish Upon A Better You.

2008-08-24T01:04:00.012+08:00

1st topic: Friends.

I'm regretting that after some times apart that I've lost contact with most of the people whom I called friends. I don't want to be a snob but the friends who I've known whether for 10 years or 10 minutes just escapes my mind because they never had a great impact to my dull existence in life. And for that I am sorry, The people who I know from way back to my years as a primary kid in Sunshine school to my days as an MD-ian teen doesn't deserve to be a 'then-and-there-then-forgotten' people who I absently just played around like a piece of music that when you're the numero uno song I'll listen to everyday, but when you're getting boring I suddenly leave you in the recycle bin. I am appreciative that without them, I prolly wouldn't be the guy you all see standing today proud to be alive.

This kinda came to view to me when I was still up during dawn and was browsing blogs after blogs of old friends.

So any old friends are gladly welcome back and to new friends may we build a great friendship.
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Topic 2: Cussing/Swearing.

"You can't really stop anyone nowadays from saying fuck or shit or any variations of that due to the westernisation that seems to over-take our country's children, it's just the generalisation of people these days"

A quote from when I told mom that stopping people from swearing or cussing is just like trying to stop judgment day. *and yes I did say fuck and shit in front of her to which she said old people used.. Kelantit or summat like that. XD

Just any old talk I love to discuss with mom, she's pretty open-minded. And in front of the other kids nonetheless, what a role model I'm turning out to be HAHA!
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Topic 3: The Need To Believe.

So who's that girl there?
I wonder what went wrong
So that she had to roam the streets
She don't do major credit cards
I doubt she does receipts
It's all not quite legitimate

And what a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes, yeah
That he's got a driving ban
Amongst some other offences

And I've seen him with girls of the night
And he told Roxanne to put on her red light
They're all infected but he'll be alright
Cause he's a scumbag, don't you know
I said he's a scumbag, don't you know!

Although you're trying not to listen
Avert your eyes and staring at the ground
She makes a subtle proposition
I'm sorry love I'll have to turn you down

And oh he must be up to summat
What are the chances sure it's more than likely
I've got a feeling in my stomach
I start to wonder what his story might be
What his story might be

They said it changes when the sun goes down
And they said it changes when the sun goes down
And they said it changes when the sun goes down
Around here
Around here

And look here comes a Ford Mondeo
Isn't he Mister Inconspicuous
And he don't even have to say 'owt
She's in the stance ready to get picked up

Bet she's delighted when she sees him
Pulling in and giving her the eye
Because she must be fucking freezing
Scantily clad beneath the clear night sky
She don't stop in the winter, no and...

They said it changes when the sun goes down
And they said it changes when the sun goes down
And they said it changes when the sun goes down
Around here

They said it changes when the sun goes down
Over the river going out to town
And they said it changes when the sun goes down
Around here
Around here

What a scummy man
Just give him half a chance
I bet he'll rob you if he can
Can see it in his eyes that he's got a nasty plan
I hope you're not involved at all

The song called 'Scummy' by the Arctic Monkeys. It sums up much of my thoughts of my friend's so called flings, she really needs to know how to pick a right guy. It's saddening to see her get hurt each time by a thoughtless airhead who in their mind just wants to fuck-and-run. Given she is English and doesn't gives a shit about the whole abstinence/virginity thing still doesn't render it to be that she's the type of girl to be taken advantage of. And by a muslim guy nonetheless, what happened to our society?!

Granted I'm a guy who isn't that very religious but I know my boundaries. Even when I stepped over that line, I still am sane enough to think that having sex three times a week is just plain uber-fucking wrong. Say these three times are with different girls, it shows that this guy just wanna get in your pants and doesn't have any deep feelings for you. You should know better babe. Tsk tsk.
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Topic 4: Parkour.

The best place to practice it would be at.. Jerudong Park!!!!

Can't believe I never thought about the place until I had a dream about doing parkour there HAHA! Weird how dreams can give you a satisfaction of a beautiful idea. I know parkour is less heard of here in Brunei than say.. Shuffling or any other trends in Brunei but I bet it can explode into a sport with great exposure from a small group of people. Just wondering who dares enough to defy gravity to that extent. Any takers? I am willing to join that group.
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Topic 5: Driving License.

THANK GOD!

I PASS!!! WHEEEEEEEE HAHAHA!!!

Just waiting for the red piece of paper to show that I am able to drive now.. Hopefully is done and dusted on Monday =)

What A Week!

2008-08-22T00:01:00.008+08:00

Pretty much a hell of a week(month?), and I'm not saying it literally.

Family problem, United problem, School problem. What a fucking bad month this is turning out to be. Let's just hope I don't make a mistake in my soon-to-be driving test (knock on wood).

Family Problem: read my last last post.
United Problem: Manchester United held to a 1-1 draw with the bar codes.
School Problem: Yurps, result was out today and my beautiful resume is looking fucked up with another U for geography and just a measly AS E for accounting.

Now I can just imagine that smug-looking face of an ex who will joyously celebrate my demise and confirming it to her and her oh-so-educated parents I'm just a waste and can't get to a fucking university even if my life depends on it. Well hell, if my parents were rich too they would send me with their own money *sniggers

I've pretty much don't give a crap anymore who reads and who doesn't, so I will be honest with my feelings and hopefully one day will look back at this blog and have a right laugh.

So my next step is to enroll in either IGS College, Micronet (update: Si Elle tantu mau aku ke sini ni XP), Kemuda or Laksmana College(I have doubts about this though). Any suggestions to which are better is happily taken =)

Praying to god I will get my license before puasa, test on 23rd. I want to get stuffs done before puasa and I seriously need the license to work all the stuffs out alone without the leash that is held in my parents hand. I'm already pissed at myself for disappointing them again with my latest crap of a result. Shit, I hate it when I see the disappointed look in their eyes and think to myself why am I such a dumbass. I'm also looking at my friends who got scholarships and flying out soon, ahh painful!

I'm still thinking what really happened to the genius/geeky boy that was me.....

And still am not giving up hope that I'll go back to my home country of Manchester, England. (Sorry I ain't a patriotic Bruneian as much as a me being patriotic for England)

Tagged and Tagging.

2008-08-20T21:39:00.007+08:00

3 Golden Rules
• state 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself
• The 10 people I tag are then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.
• No tag backs (:

♪ When I wake up, I'll always start the day with a cigarette before anything.
♪ Able to speak in a British accent fluently but rarely uses it.
♪ Is a shoe-addict especially BAPE shoes.
♪ Takes longer to pick out what to wear than the family and prolly most girls I know esp. with shoes.
♪ Has an obsessive-compulsive disorder when it comes to picking his dining utilities.
♪ Always made friends with the maid so I can get away with most things I do at home lol.
♪ Picks food according to mood.
♪ I love to read, especially those books that are controversial (e.g. Da Vinci Code) and Harry Potter.
♪ Was smart back in the days.
♪ Very Very VERY pemalu.
♪ I tend to act differently with different people.
♪ Have a bit of a feminine side.
♪ Have short term memory loss.
♪ Spends most time in my room.
♪ More western than eastern. Eh.. 15 dah HAHA!

Tagging:
Elle, Yatii, Fifiz, Azzi, A'a, Eamz, FancyQ, Si Nabil, Naa, Kiki.

Succumb To Depression.

2008-08-10T19:54:00.004+08:00

Just wanna let this out before I go crazy or kill myself. (GAH!! Emo Neh!!)

So practically, I was always the wild one, the guy who always doesn't heed what his parents wants. I smoke, I go out a lot, I failed my exams, I.. Well you get the gist (Too much details is not good for this family-linked blog). So it can be assumed that my parents don't trust me much do they? I mean they do trust me, just that not so much.

But recently for the past three weeks or so, I've changed into a more mature and responsible guy. I tried my best to win my parents trust so they can give me a break from all the nagging and stuffs and be more trustful of me. Well I helped out a lot around the house by being the chef and help things run smoothly with the kids schedule. And so they have a bit more respect for me, more trust. The reward? I finally have a chance to get my bloody license. <- passed my written test, now for the practical test.

BUT!!!! *suspense music*

While I have say, turn over a new leaf or a bit like that, my brothers is becoming more like the old me. No they don't smoke or go out, they break the rules their style. The first one, let's call him 'I', he escaped school (don't even ask me how, it's a looooong story) to play games/The PSP in my possession. So naturally I was shocked to see him knocking on my door at 7 or 8(?) in the morning to ask for the PSP. Well he got what he deserved from mom after that. His reason was stressed.
Kid Aged: 15, Absentees: Dad; Indonesia.

This other one, ohoho, he's a clever one, and this gives me much more pain and sadness because it was my responsibility. He is 'A' and this happened last night. He said he was bored at home with nothing to do after dinner so he wanted to cycle around. Me, assuming he just wants to cycle around Bengkurong at first was reluctant (should have listened to my instinct), but when he pestered me about it, I said fine!! GO!! Just take my phone and call if anythings the matter. So he went, while dumbass me went on watching a stupid Korean drama on RTB2. It wasn't until around 11 that my auntie called to tell me 'A' was in Jerudong where he was met by our Nini Asai. Bengkurong and Jerudong is faaaaar, you can pass a few other villages before coming to either one of those two village. I was shocked, so I called him and ask him what the fuck he was doing in Jerudong. And he dared answer me that it was fucking nothing. Seriously, he's gone bonkers. Heck, even my auntie who was in Belait heard about it and wanted to race back to Brunei-Muara to help out. So me and my sister waited for him and it was like 11.30-ish that he got home, I seriously wanted to yell at him for being a fucking idiot but my auntie who was at that time on the phone tried to calm me down and told me that she will be there in a minute. So I shutted up, and he dared to go to his room acting all innocent and shit. And in the space of a few minutes my uncles and aunties came to the house, they were mad at 'A' for his lack of tact(he could've just called my uncles/aunties if he was bored) and at me for being irresponsible. So I was pissed that I was blamed too, do I have to be a hypocrite? I mean I was always going out at nights on a bike ride and yet stop my brother if he did it?

After all the talk was settled, it was agreed that all of us should stay at Rimba to avoid any more catastrophe. Before I agreed to go there, I locked myself in my room and thrashed it. I start to cry because this situation is a big hit on me being responsible and the families won't ever see me as responsible enough to take care of the family. I didn't even care that my auntie(my favourite one) saw me crying as she was the only one to realise the huge burden I'm carrying as being the eldest son/eldest grandson of the Noor Family.
Kid Aged: 12, Absentees: Parents; Labuan

Why is it when I try to do good that my brother wants to be bad? Do I have to be evil so that others can be angels? Why is it every time they do something bad, I'm the one being blamed? They are kids not retards, they can think too so stop blaming me!!!

P.S: I'm not doing this for sympathy, If you think it is for that then screw you and stop reading my blog. I just want to share it so others can be prepare and perhaps some can stop the blame game.

Bestfriend's Anniversary.

2008-08-09T08:53:00.004+08:00

Happy Anniversary of us being bestfriends Elle,
Hahaha Can't Believe 1 year dah since me tagur you betanya siapaaaaaa lagi mama kepada Adek Yatii ane XP

Anyway hopefully jangan sebab hal kecil pun the friendship goes sour.
The date it started was: 7-8-2007 =P
Love You, Mwahsss.

Re-Incarnation.

2008-08-01T05:52:00.002+08:00

THIS BLOG WILL BE UNDER CONSTRUCTION FOR A NEW LOOK AND A NEW LEASE ON LIFE.

UPDATES WILL BE FREQUENT FROM THERE-ON AND A NEW VIEW OF THE LIFE FROM MR. JEZTA'S PERSPECTIVE.

P.S: FUCK YOU EXS =D

Dead Until Proven Otherwise

2008-07-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

Understand what my title means?

It means I'm on hiatus from blogging. Am damn tired after going to KL then back to Brunei, then going to ShenZhen and then back to Brunei. AM JUST TIRED.

Now daddy and mommy is in Korea on a work meeting(they went straight to Korea from ShenZhen) and I'm responsible for the kids, so excuse me for not blogging as much as I want. It's a lot of work taking care of the kids.

So goodbye for now people, I'll share my experiences when I do get the energy to recap all of the things that have been going on.

P.S. My Football Girl.

KL: Day 2, Running High

2008-06-19T05:03:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,

Today the kids and the parents went to swim while yours truly was asleep still in the morning.

Afternoon however we went to Masjid India 1st to shop for tudongs for the ladies. Then KLCC, and seriously the only thing I bought was a pair of sock.

After that Bukit Bintang/Sungei Wang. And still no shopping.

Night at Pavilion, definitely no shopping. The place was big, Gadong Mall times 100. The shops were the high-classed ones(branded goods).

So I'm pissed that I didn't get to shop. Yours Truly, the shopaholic was let down.

Apparently mom said yesterday we had already spent like one thousand. (told ya I could spend a thousand in a day at one place XP)

Dawn, went to McD or as we like to call it NV(Nice View - Iklan Kaki Bola) with dad and sis to watch Euro. Got six coupons for free fries because of two goals scored by Pavyluchenko and Arshavin respectively. Wish Brunei was this uber-fun. I mean KL IS the Asian version of the city that never sleeps. XP

So ending off on a low note, I say FUDGE!! I DIDN'T GET TO SHOP TODAY!!!!

I'm going home at 6p.m later, so hopefully I can snag some stuffs at the airport for a few people before the flight.

KL: The Shopaholic

2008-06-18T01:11:00.006+08:00

Yes, I'm a shopaholic. True fact.

Today, the 1st day of life in KL, I've spent around 2-3 hundreds of RM dollars on shopping. Clothes, Accessories, Presents for Friends and Cousins, Food and Unnecessary things that aroused my attention.

You could've given me one thousand and I could spend it a whole day in one place. And that place today was at Mid-Valley.

So 1st day of shopping in KL can be summed up in one word: AWWWWWWWSOME!!! XP

That's about it for today, tired enough to write a blow-by-blow account on today's event, on to TOMORROW!!!!! XD

KL: The Arrival

2008-06-17T02:36:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, guess what? Dad said it was okay to bring the laptop and so I just brought it
and now I am able to steal someone else's wireless connection, perhaps I will blog my adventures here XD

No pictures yet though, I forgot to bring the mmc-reader, darn it XD

So anyhoo, flight from Brunei was delayed up until 9.30 when we started to get going. Arrived here in the Asian version of 'The City That Never Sleeps' around 12-ish. Sampai ke Apartment at 2-ish in the GODDAMN FREAKIN' MORNING!!!

Okay I'm getting cranky and tired. So I'm out aytes?! Will report tomorrow's/later(?) progress after I rested up a bit.

Bon Voyage.

Night Of Missing Souls

2008-06-16T17:10:00.002+08:00

Well the title really doesn't mention anything,

But yeah I'll be missing from Brunei.. So don't miss me yeah XP

Current time: 5.15pm

On The Move At: 6pm

Time Of Flight: 8pm

This is my last post for the.. well for four days. I'm bringing the camera along so I can take lots and lots of pictures =D
Was thinking of bringing the laptop, but I don't know.. Might be dangerous and I can't bear to lose the lappy, am also not feeling safe it being here in my room though.

And to certain2 kawan ku yg ter-cintas hope I have enough dough to get you people some ole2 ;P

alright signing off,
Love Kamu XD

Quickie Moment

2008-06-15T07:11:00.000+08:00

Just a quick say on yesterday's events:

2.30 = Went to Rimba.

2.30 - 5.30 = At Rimba, Just chilled there and played Wii(My arms are still sore XP), Uncu had bbq with her friends so get to eat bbq stuff haha..

5.30 - 5.45 = Fetched Iqbal at Flying Colours.

5.45 - 6.00 = Otw to Empire.

6-ish = Got there, Bought the tickets to Kungfu Panda. (chatted with bestie Elle for awhile, am worried she is depressed =S)

7-ish - 9-ish = Watched the movie. (after the movie ends, chatted with Charley, progress XD)

9.30 - 10.00 = SUSHIIIIII!!!!!! LOL

10.15 = Got home and went to sleep.

END. AHAHAHA

P.S Will put up a poll, need your suggestion on which car should my dad buy, am seriously forcing him to re-think of buying a Suzuki SX4(This will affect me coz' I'm probably gonna use it more after I get my license which is soon after I come back from ShenZhen). XP

Adios.

A New Day Begins

2008-06-14T10:47:00.000+08:00

Soooo, I'm Back!!!

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! Well for now that is.. Now looking forward to spending holidays abroad.

Lemme recap, not gonna go over how my exams went, I DON'T want to talk about it no more:

Last of the last exams was on Friday morning so yeah, after that was done was happy and that afternoon went out for the first time in 2 weeks with friends XD

Awal2 I went to Gadong and meet up with sis Vil and si Wan, kami lunch sama2 at KFC, oh how I miss Zinger LOL.

Kali kali menunggu V(Happy B'day 11th June), JieJie and Rukia, jalan-jalan tah dulu with si Wan Biawak around the mall. Sis Vil gotta go back to work yatah kami dua ja jalan2 without a destination ahaha. Kali ada stalker ngikut2 kami, panya bini2 tiga yang di tunggu atu ahaha XP

So so V wanted to watch Hulk at the mall but Wan didn't want to, nya bebau kerusi arah Mall atu hahaha, pikir punya pikir they decided to watch it at Kiulap, Ke sana tah kami.. Car pool ja kami arah kerita si Wan sebab mun dua2 kan bawa krita batah ja cari parking XD

AKU KANA BULLY!!! HAHAHA.. Yes, sebab aku diam2 dalam krita atu, jarih ku kana selurukan.. Damn, Lum ku biasa bah ngan kamu bini2 atu, what do you expect?! It ain't my fault I'm no good in talking face to face with new people, I'm content on keeping quiet and enjoy the view of Brunei XP

So we watched Hulk (Not Recommended, boring HANTAP), seriously if bukan sebab V and Rukia offering me popcorn every 5mins.(For real, dorang mengira every 5 minutes), tetidur ku kali eh.. haha

After abis the movie, I saw BA284 parking at the Kiulap mall, so daripada si Wan ngantar ku balik I just told him I'll follow dad to his Futsal tourney di JKR. Said my thanks to V sebab belanja liat wayang atu and promised I'll get her something when I'm at KL.

At the futsal tourney atu I was already tired and in serious need of resting, plus I got bored of the match half way through, dad's team lost by 5-1 eventually. I already told him the opponents' weaknesses tapi ndaaaaa jua mau ikut cakap ku atu so yeah I'm not gonna follow the match. Baik lagi ku tidur dalam the car eventhough it was frickin' steaming in there. So sampai abis the tourney atu, I was in the car, sleeping.

Balik rumah, fell asleep again, heh tired much mister? Didn't watch Euros for the past few days though damn..

And practically that's just it, other than I haven't played football since the start of exams, I'm pretty much enjoying the good life.

Next stop KL(16th-19th) and Shenzhen(24th-28th).

Wish me lucks peeps.

P.S I'll write the today's news later.

New Downloaded Movies:
1)Austin Powers Trilogy
2)Grind
3)Kungfu Panda
4)Napoleon Dynamite
5)The Covenant

Soon-To-Be-Completed:
1)The Benchwarmers
2)Family Guy Season 6

The Conquest: Part II

2008-06-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

Meant to write my past few days yesterday, but fell asleep while thinking of the title so I decided to make it part II of the Conquest.. XP

Okay, Here's how things went:

~~Wednesday, 28th May 2008:~~
Can't remember much, but last tuition for the year.

~~Thursday, 29th May 2008:~~
Also can't remember what went on.. Eh wait, I think we went to Dai's house that night, Si Alai birthday.. So yeah Happy Birthday Zikri yang ke-5? 6? Nda ingaaaaat XD

Me and Zikri[Yes, Kabur]

~~Friday, 30th May 2008:~~
Awal Bangun that morning, gonna go to Temburong.. Stuck at Sungai Tujoh, Banyak yoooo krita ah HAHA.. Sampai di Limbang around 11.30 atu, Lunch dulu at Sarimah's then singgah ke Ngiu Kee, shopped a bit hehe.. Then, continuing the journey to Temburong, Sampai di resthouse.. chill sana tah kami2, oh this trip was a family trip with the Kilanas family a.k.a The 284 Family =D

The Resthouse

Kilanas Family

Me, Muhsin, Ahmad, Aidi, Iqbal

Uncu, Afeen and Nabilah (Iqbal nyampuk di belakang)

For Babu Dina, Yang Rindu Family nya XP

~~Saturday, 31st May 2008:~~
Kami ke Selapon, apa ada sana? Just see lah from the few pictures I picked, nda dapat semua.. Banyaaaaaak kami gambar, vain uh kami sorang2 LOL!!!!

the pictures:

Before Kami Kacau XP

Me and Awie

Afeen, Nabilah, Uncu and Me(GOD! Aku ja inda vain time makan hehe)

Swimming, well partially

A dad and sons moment, project Jacuzzi LOL

Afiq's Creation, We Modified, Guess it. [hint:Guys have it LOL]

After the Jacuzzi project, we put a selipar-holder XP

Yup me, Iqbal, Ahmad and Awie unnaturalised the rock haha

Nabilah, Afiq(shirtless) and Jaji(Yellow/Gray Swimsuit) was the only one who didn't join the Father/Sons project, Aidi

Another one for Babu Dina's memories XP

Well enough of the photos for now, will upload a few videos soon..
That afternoon The Nini Asai's, Nini Iring's and my family(+Uncu/-Nabil and Jaji) went home.. The trip back was okay and uneventful (well I slept through it XD)..

~~Sunday, 1st June 2008:~~
First thing's first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCU yg ke-21 XD

One of The Best Auntie

She is just the greatest, as an auntie she has responsibilities to us anak2 buah but she let's me get away with almost anything HAHA even time di MD when she was my senior, she was still cool and lanja2 weeeee hahaha.. Heck if you guys know my evil side you too will be astonished on why she would always tolerate my behaviour at school..

Okay, back to my day,
Pagi2 dah kana banguni, gunting rambut oh~ haha so basically my hair pendek2 now, wait for a few months lagi tu if you wanna see my long-emoish hair XP
Afternoon nothing, played football then balik awal today.. Usually I go home at 8-9p.m, lepak2 with the mates dulu, but because I have exams tomorrow balik awal..
Amit Bibeh antar pizza that she made, heck, was nice.. But sebab inda kenyang I cooked ButterMilk Chicken.. Was actually just a test to see if I could make it without a recipe(not many people knows how to make it kecuali kedai2), but it turned out nice and got a good review from my family YAY!!! Not really perfect, a little flawed here and there but it does taste like buttermilk chicken XD

So that's pretty much it, I go study yep, tomorrow my first exam.
Kudos peeps.

Humanity.. Lost Through Greed and Politics.

2008-05-29T08:40:00.000+08:00

I was scouring the newspaper(BB) for some hard-disk offer but this is what I found instead:

China slams Brown - Dalai Lama meeting
BEIJING (AFP) - China on Saturday voiced strong opposition to a meeting between British Prime Minister Gordon Brown and the Tibetan exiled leader the Dalai Lama, calling it interference in its internal affairs.

"The British side has refused to acknowledge our serious concerns and ... arranged a meeting with Brown and other politicians," the foreign ministry said in a statement.

"This interferes in China's internal affairs," it said. "The Chinese side expresses its strong dissatisfaction and firm opposition to this."

During the Friday meeting, Brown pledged Britain's support for rapprochement between Tibet and China after Beijing held talks with envoys of the Dalai Lama.

Brown's office said he held "warm and constructive" discussions with the exiled Tibetan spiritual leader in a 30-minute meeting at Lambeth Palace, the Archbishop of Canterbury's official residence in London. The talks were the most contentious engagement of the Dalai Lama's 11-day visit to Britain.

Brown, who is keen to boost trade and other links with China, faced domestic criticism for not receiving him in the prime minister's Downing Street office, as his predecessors Tony Blair and John Major did.

Protests against China's 57-year rule over Tibet broke out in March, a sensitive time in the run-up to the Beijing Olympics.

Exiled Tibetan leaders say 203 people died in the Chinese crackdown on the demonstrations.

China says it acted with restraint and killed no one, while blaming Tibetan "rioters" for the deaths of 21 people.

And as you people must have heard, Recently an 8.0 magnitude of an earthquake hit China on 12th May which has resulted in the death of nearly 80,000 people.

This is just a lot of bullshit coming from the Prime Minister of Britain and from The Chinese Government, they friggin' care who someone would meet and about the Olympics rather than being more concerned on the death toll which is steadily rising every second.

Which leads me to my other point, the children that were killed by the earthquake, at school.. For fuck's sake, we Bruneians were taught on the safety procedure if there was an earthquake which is only gonna happen when Judgment Day comes but there at China who do have histories of earthquakes? What should they tell the children? YES HIDE UNDER A TABLE, COVER YOUR HEAD!!!!! Why weren't these children taught of this simple stuff? Instead they risk themselves by running and being evacuated to a single door per say the teachers' orders.. How OBTUSE CAN YOU BE??????? GOD!!!

That's all I want to share,
To those Chinese whose lives have been destroyed by the earthquake, I feel for your loss and hope in due time you will regain your strength back to live life though your heart will be scarred forever by this tragedy. Especially those who have followed the One-Child Policy, losing your only child is quite unbearable.

Be Strong People, Believe In God

What The Eff' Is My Story?

2008-05-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

I've forgotten what I wanna write.. Damn.. XP

Ahh.. First things first, kamu kamu doa kan ku dapat trial at Manchester United ah, I've already written an e-mail to them requesting this and have yet to receive a reply, tunggu saja tia.. HAHAHA I know what you guys are thinking, gila pakah dah anak ane with M.U. Well.. You can say that but hey I'm being a visionary and this will boost Brunei's status sooo guys doa kan ahh.. If I do make it big, kamu kamu jua bangga kan kan? And you guys will be reaping the rewards I promise you. =D

If you know me well, you'll know how my day went.. The same ol' same ol' routine.. I have no life LOL!!!

My last day of tuition was today though soooo yeah, meaning exam is looming, just over the horizon, near, hampir, dakat and etc. well you get the gist.

Oh yeah, apparently Afif is going to Perth, Aussie next month so kurang seorang ne the Bengkurong team that I play with, nda batah after that Ariff ke UK, then Labi ke MKJB sambung belajar, Me too perhaps kan sambung belajar ke UK.. The team is going to be barren. *sigh* Good memories with you guys and you guys tah yang shape me up into becoming a better footballer than that I could've imagined. I thank you =)

Eh btw, I'm thinking of choreographing my own video of dancing to the music of Britney Spears - Break The Ice, Sapa mau join? LOL!!!!!!! Nadawah, I'm not serious although the beat is sick, perhaps lah saja..

So signing off,
Toodles~

*Ada gambar kah nda kan di masukkan ah? Hmm.. XP*

A Happy Birthday To Sister Nabilah..

2008-05-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

[Left to Right: Me, Afeen, Nabil and Uncu]

Happy Birthday Bil, Brapa dah umur mu ane.. urm.. Ahh 17 taun.. Bah taun dapan belesen bisai2 tah haha.. Blajar bnr2 and etc. etc.

I know we don't have a lot in common and we bicker a lot as usual for brothers and sisters do worldwide.. Tapi kau ganya tah adi ku yg bini2.. XP

And as your big brother, I won't go into all those mushy2 stuff, sama jua kau te-eeewwwww tu karang LOL XD

Oryte, AS nda batah, A-level taun dpn, blajar ah, jgn kau te-ikut2 abg mu ane.. Jgn begila bnr..

Project Blog, Project Dance, Project Iced.

2008-05-25T03:05:00.000+08:00

Some of you who are dear loyal readers (doubt there is one though) might see that I've stop posting blog for a bit, well this is due to upcoming A-Level exams, and also my writer's block.. No idea at all what to write about, the same routine everyday.. nyehness..

I think I'm catching a cold.. Yeah Yeah, main bula time ujan tah kau lagi.. biaaaaaaaaaaaar tia wahh, I have the potential to play for Manchester United.. Yes, not DPMM or the Bruneian National team, It's M.A.N.C.H.E.S.T.E.R.U.N.I.T.E.D. Aim high people, that will get you through all the shits and etcetera etcetera.. One-two failure doesn't mean you are a failure for life.. Grasp your dreams in both hands..

Blehh, payah buat blog aneyh, keep on sneezing and coughing.. And I defo can't stand the a/c in my room, friggin' cold..

Oh oh, an idea occurred to me this afternoon when I was browsing through youtube and was watching Jon M. Chu's(Step Up 2 director) and Lonelygirl15's video blog.. This will be my project soon, to make a video blog instead of the normal write-me-a-story blog. For now, a new layout that won't cramp the video's size.

Another upcoming project for me is to create a dance crew, well not really a new project but not really in progress at the moment.. Kinda lost contact with Dien and Fakhri about the crew since I stopped using Mig33.. Interested people give me a shout-out.. Will accept any enthusiastic dancer, and I'm not just talking about those things you do with your feet, what do you call'em? Shuffling? Puh-leeeaze, learn other dance moves.. Yes, I'm harsh, but straight facts that stereotypical Brunei are all in the craze of this shuffling thingy at the moment so I want to pick the real dance-lovers and yes I shuffle too but I incorporate them with other types of dances.. Oh dance battle soon too..

Anyhoo, Stacy won Akademi Fantasia season 6, wasn't even interested in watching the final but I watched it anyway SINCE I was at my great-grandmother's house and I got nothing else to do.. Kinda expected that she won, just got this hunch.. To tell the truth, and no offense to you people, what is the deal with music-shows? It's getting booooring people..

SOOOOO signing off from this thingy-thingy, I say peace~
*Can't write anymore, the cold is catching up, blergh*

The Conquest

2008-05-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Yes yes, it's time to look a bit deeper into my soul..

Where have I been these few days? To answer that is quite simple, was in Beribi and not at home, so no wireless connection thus no updates.. Well here's the update:

~~Sunday, 18th May 2008:~~
Not much in the morning/afternoon, practically slept the whole day, at night however, went to Excapade Gadong, Sushi with the Bengkurong Family, was fuuuuuun haha plus I was one of the last one to finish all the orders, garbage disposal uhh hahaha.. Then dangani Ake tidur di Beribi sebab Uncle Zack ke Aussie yatah Dai nada dangan.. Slept way early than used to that night, kepisaaaaaaaaaaaan XD. Ake told me Charley is single heheh sorry Malay and Chinese girls(pernah couple dah), aku mau cuba date an English girl masa ane XP

Me, Raziq and Jidah

Wafi, Me, Raziq and Jidah

Ice Mint Tea~

Me, Dai and Ake

Bengkurong Family, Sushi Time!

Me and Ake went back to Gadong that night: PART I

Me and Ake went back to Gadong that night: PART II

~~Monday, 19th May 2008:~~
Pagi bangun awal, Ake banguni awal minta dangani antar Qimi ke MD, then met Luqman/Luke and Aizuddien(Kawan baru lagi XP) somewhere arah tempat kadai kopi haha I can't remember where, meet up point dorang JIS people lah ni.. Then we went and help out cari workshop sebab si Judin kan modified his Hyundai Coupe's doors jadi Lambo doors(AWWWSOME), we went to like 5-6 workshop baru tah tejumpa yang sanggup ngusai haha and bukan ampir-ampir workshop nya ani, jauh hantap!!! We practically went from Gadong to Kiarong to Muara then finally di Kilanas..

After all that tiring work, guess what? We decided to go with our initial plan ke KB untuk beli the tobacco, rolling paper, and filter to make-your-own-cigs XP. Ngalih yooo ke KB ahh.. Jalan from Kilanas to KB, from 10.00 to 11.30, 1hr and 30mins. kepisan dalam kerita hahaha Ake lah kepisan bnr, he was driving. SOOO after sampai tah hajat Luke kan membeli ahh,went back to Brunei-Muara terus.. Now tell me, atu pun kamu nda sangal, sadang2 jua menipu ane XP. Balik to B-M, singgah tah ke Nasi Katok di Jerudong to refill ourselves, antar Judin to the workshop in Kilanas, pick-up Qimi in MD, WestStreet jap, antar Luke ke rumahnya, went back to Beribi(we were staying there) EXHAUSTED!!!

Ake, Luke And Aizzudien.

Ake, Luke And Obscure Me.

~~Tuesday, 20th May 2008:~~
Ake banguni in the morning, antar Qimi skulah, picked-up Luke, went to Fuad's place, kan 'belajar' hahaha.. Yeah right.. After staying there for a few hours, went to MD(ada a bit of a problem), soooo sana tah kami betiga sampai lunch when Qimi meet us up at Flat BC-5, ke Nasi Katok Mama makan, antar Qimi balik to school cause he got class, hangout at westreet ja kami tiga.. ADA THIS HAWTTTT CHICK YO!!!! Geez, she is one damn fine woman, haha meleleh air liur meliat XP. Luke balik2 liat the girl, Qimi(after classnya ke WestStreet) angau hantap, Ake relax ja and me? Chill ja~ cool sikit hahaha.. That was our day so far, the usual antar Luke balik ke rumahnya, went back to Beribi, pack our stuffs, balik rumah sorang2 sebab the problem which prompted Ake and Qimi to really want to go home, I just follow suit, malas kan sorang2 di Beribi..

That afternoon, for the first time in a few days, I played football.. Nyaman jua rasa badan ada exercise atu XD. Urgh, day by day hilang my striker self, I'm turning into a defender, a part of the team we are lacking.. But it's cool, at least kadang2 I got to go up jua yeaaaa hahaha.. I AM WAYNE ROONEY XD

~~Wednesday, 21st May 2008:~~
Did nothing the whole day, malam tuition. Oh I got to know that 16th June(three days after abis my exam) kami sefamily ke KL(YAY!!) and maybe I'm included to go to Shenzhen, China on the 24th(25th?), wohooo belayar saja ku ne plus SHOPPING!!!!! XP. Sleep, Woke up at 2.00am to watch the Champo League Final.. MANCHESTER UNITED WONNNNNNNNN!!!!!! WOHOOOOOO!!! Exstatic, nuff' said.

~~Thursday, 22nd May 2008:~~
Did nothing also, played football(getting more matured in the defensive position, no more rash decisions, sigh, not much attacking anymore though). And now writing this blog.. Should I try my luck with Charley? She's cute ganya younger than me by 1-2 year, and seriously young girls are a bit immature to my taste due to my recent past two relationships. Last2 putus jua X(. Ahh well that's the future, now busting my ass off to get the right results in the near A-Level exams, first paper on the 2nd. 2nd, 4th, 5th, 10th and lastly on the 13th.. Break a leg boy.

P.S: HIMYM and Supernatural Season 3 is done, got all of them. Pinjam anyone?

Cheerio.

We are United, We are the Red Devils and We ARE CHAMPIONS!!!!

2008-05-22T06:21:00.000+08:00

WE ARE CHAMPIONS!!!!!!

FIRST XI

PARTY TIME!!!!!

Oh God, I'm in such a euphoric state right now that I can't stop crying..

MANCHESTER UNITED, CHAMPIONS OF ENGLAND AND CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE!!!!!

We have won the double, both over those Chelscum, LOSER HAHAHAHA!!!!!

This is more emotional to me than the 98-99 win because I'm older now and much in love with the team I grew up with.. Wish I could've been there to celebrate with the other United fans.. Oh well, suck it Scousers, Chelskis and the Arses!!!!! Just one disappointment, Park didn't play and didn't get a medal, would've been nice to see a fellow Asian earn one especially when he totally deserved it..

CHAMPIONS OF ENGLAND, CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE!!!!!!!!

P.S: Will update on my life soon, for now, it's party time!!!!!!

CLASS OF 07-08

THE CUP IS OURS!!!!

Must See Anime..

2008-05-17T07:59:00.000+08:00

Bleach - Memories Of Nobody

Click Here To Watch:Memories Of Nobody

A good thumping movie from the anime, Bleach, although made for series, the 1st movie made was absolutely excellent..

To all anime, Bleach, Japanese-movie fans, this movie will leave you in tears at the end.. Typical type of ending but nonetheless fun to watch as of the characters' development..

P.S. The movie runs for 92.35mins. so might take a bit long to upload, but you can just make popcorns while waiting for it hehe..

Watch for Bleach 2nd movie 'Diamond Dust Rebellion' hitting torrent webs soon..

Enjoy~

Alesana, The Much Anticipated

2008-05-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

Hear ye, Hear ye,
For all the screamos and screaming fans, give it up for... ALESANA!!!

Yes, the 2nd and much anticipated album 'Where Myth Fades To Legend' is due out on the 3rd of June 2008..

The first album 'On Frail Wings Of Vanity And Wax' has sky-rocketed the band to stardom in the US and has been much listened to around the world by screamos fan and generally the rock population.

So get your vocals ready to scream alongside the growling deep EFFING SCREAMING sounds of the band that has been the crazed of the underground scene in Brunei..

Oh and to you posers who think they can scream, piss off, a cat being stepped on sounds better than what you sound..

Cheers.

Solomon Key(Book) and Angels & Demons(Movie)

2008-05-16T06:29:00.000+08:00

"The WSJ has some promising news about The Solomon Key from Doubleday's Stephen Rubin:

Now, the publisher is hinting that a manuscript is close. "Dan Brown has a very specific release date for the publication of his new book, and when the book is published, his readers will see why," says Stephen Rubin, president of Bertelsmann's Doubleday Broadway Publishing Group, whose Doubleday imprint publishes Mr. Brown. Mr. Rubin declined further comment.

Rubin seems to be hinting at a specific reason behind the publication date. Is it likely to be a day of importance in American history or politics? July 4th, the start of the election campaign.."

"Some word from Hollywood on the cast for the film version of Angels and Demons:

This past week a couple of new faces were added to the project. First, Ayelet Zurer (Munich) signed on as the female lead, pairing up with Hanks’ character while trying to solve her father’s murder. Next, a bit more of a known face came into play as we learned that Ewan McGregor was in negotiations to play the role of the Pope’s closest aide, Camerlengo Carlo Ventresca, who initially helps Langdon with the investigation.

Angels & Demons is scheduled for production beginning June 5th (for a May 2009 release)."

Chills, Thrills.. And Shervin?

2008-05-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

He's Baaaaaaaaack XD

So let me recap my day,
Tadi Pagi Ake and Luqman came by my house cause they want my vanilla tobac (tinggal sikit tarus ey, and tinggal 1 rolling paper), and we hang-out here sampai pukul 11.30+ I think.

Then we went out, we went to the car dealer in Bunut first, Ake and Luqman was hoping to test drive the Evo IV tapi nda dapat sebab alum lagi be-registered HAHAHA too bad guys, I was not that interested in the Evo, not my taste of car, was eyeing the Mini Cooper though, Sweeeeeet waaaaah.. At $62000, $692 Per Month, Hmmmm.. Daddy Daddy buy that car pweeeeease XP

After all the negotiations and stuffs about the Evo by those two (macam kan membeli saja kamu aaaa XP), jalan tah kami lagi to Fuad's house arah Laksmana College punya apartment atu, awwwwsome place dude, macam personal apartment. Si Fuad lum lagi bangun tu time kami crash, kinda awkward for me, sebab first time ni kami kenal but he's a cool guy. So we played PES, kalah ku by si Ake ( leading 3-0 only to lose 5-3) and by si Fuad (3-0, by a guy who just woke up, I'm getting sucky). Couldn't count the win against Luqman cause he's not the football-type of gamer. So we just chilled there until nearly 3.00p.m, then antar Luqman balik then baru tah Ake antar ku balik and after that fell into a comatose sleep sampaaaaai malam XP

Well actually sampai pukul 6++, was woken up sebab the wind was blowing very hard, another storm usulnya, tutup the window then went to work on the lappy but nda batah atu tutup karan lagi for the second time this week, so had to hibernate the lappy to save the power, went out from my room, the family was discussing kan liat wayang and settled on Forbidden Kingdom, ahhh malas ku ikut, was freakin tired because of the lack of sleep, then went back to sleep di luar atu hahaha

When I woke up tadi felt kinda hungry kali called mummy to buy me and Afiq some food since we didn't followed them and was kinda hungry. Pacahnya mummy was still in the cinema time ku called, jawabnya jua HAHAHA I apologised for calling then just messaged her to buy some food. (Oh, at this time buka karan dah which was around 10p.m)

Oh Oh, I almost forgot, first it was Luqman then Fuad, They said I looked like this guy called Shervin/The Shervinator, HAHAHA who is this guy???? Apparently, nya Ake a Filipino/US dude at JIS, kawan dorang.. Adaaaa nama baru tah ku ni HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

So for now then,
Arrivederci,
Haziq a.k.a Jezta

Another Restless Night

2008-05-14T03:54:00.000+08:00

Okay Okay, last time I signed off from here like around 8.30 or something, actually was still awake and fixing some bugs.. So basically went to sleep around 12.00++ noon, HAHAHA

Anyway I'm like an owl nowadays and exams are near.. A bit nervous actually, I wanna do well this time so I can leave Brunei for awhile and go back to my 2nd home in England XD

It's not that I don't like Brunei, it's just that I've been to hell and back for the past years in Brunei and I'm missing England sooooooo badly, I wanna go back to Manchester and live there at our old house (ada kah nda jua masih? Adakah Uncle Graham?) heheh..

So now boring myself doing this blog that I doubt a lot would read, add with doing a Family Guy trivia on Friendster and downloading Supernatural's season 3 episodes from 13 to 15, btw to people who wants 'How I Met Your Mother' and 'Supernatural' series tunggu next week when I finished downloading the final episodes of both series current season, then I can loan out my hard-disk supaya kamu kamu dapat copy aytes? =D

Anyway to cap things off for my latest post, I just wanna say Britney Spears's acting is just okay and hell, she's fat in the HIMYM series HAHAHAHA.

Cheers All,
Haziq A.K.A Jezta

Edit this, Edit that (Haven't Sleep)

2008-05-13T08:22:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. 2nd posting by me, 1st post was by Elle(THAAAAAAANX XD), anyway..

It's nearly 8.30 a.m. bru tah ku siap edit itu, edit ini for an okay blog.. ALUM KU TIDUR OI DARI KEMARIN!!! HAHAHA gila ku skajap..

Note to self: Must learn the codes and shits lagi to improve this blog so kamu kamu senang view, I still think my blog punya layout is crappy but ughh I'm tired and I don't KNOW what else to edit, kepisaaaaaan ku dah ne..

So signing off,
Haziq a.k.a Jezta

first post! :D

2008-05-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

testing testing ;p